An autistic me: How do I know?

"Autist" this word now define who am i. I not medically diagnose due lack mental ward in my region (quite far from my house) that had expertise to diagnose that. So this is writting about how I found my self is have autism.

Anime Meme

There a lot meme in telegram that shown anime character that have autistic traits, such Frieren, Reisa from Blue Archive, Iwakura Lain dan much more to tell. Its funny, right? to know autism from meme, but it real.

The most common behaivour in that character is uncommunicative and too absorbed into their mind, or world. Frieren for example had difficulty to communicate her feeling to Himmel or everything that human do at general. Lain disconnected from reality to wired by her computer and unable fit socially, fail to address social cue.

That gateway to me address the issue more serious, after think and feel like those two anime charater. Difficult in social interaction like unable to chit-chat (for real, this tiresome), unable got social cue (I think people think me rude and I think other people too), and I only revolve in my interest: anime, computer, literature and philosophy.

Sometime talking with people like draining me fast that my battery phone, when I go to meet my homerome teacher on friday to submitting thesis that tottaly drain my energy and on saturday I got bedridden LOL and quite anhedonia.

Online Test

After few research about autism from Interent (not using AI, do not use that for medical question) and reminiscene about my childhood and current adulthood experience with premises I got from research. The result quite suprise me and not shocked.

Here the test: Autism Spectrum Quotient.

I got score between 29 to 33 of 50. There quite question hit some spot like difficult to chit-chat, hard making new friend, challenged do one more task at once, its hard to get back to thing after got interupted and other short of question. According to the test, my score have inclination to have autistm, yet it mild one. Adult with autism, secondary type autism.

The test is in english, and those languange not my native nor fluence. At least, I able to read and write simple english sentence. So maybe there some discrepancy from languange barier.

Book

Currently there one book I recently read about autism. Autism: Very short introduction by Uta Frith published by Oxford. She is .The book quite straigtforward and hit the spot of me, atleast highlight that there various type of autism, a spectrum to precise, like color in rainbow.

The book talk about what symptom kid that have autism, it history, contemporary acceptance and it medication. That the part currently I have read, not done read. I recommend that book for who want to know about autism without to much hassle with term or scary word and backed with research.

Also beware false information about autism. There a lot claim that can cure by doing this and that. Actually, there no cure like most genetic-driven health condition. Only treatement by profesional to reduce side symptom from autism such stress and depression.

Conclusion

That is about how I do know is I have autism approach. In future, If I have quite money and energy, I glad to do real test in some other province for proper diagnostic.